pride

I was happy at first when i moved here in arizona. but after being here for months. i wasnt happy for awhile. and something was keeping me down. I think that there is something missing in my life, and i couldn't quite figure out the problem was. then i was thinkging back. Arizona wasnt just my choice of moving too. i was also thinking of moving to new york. and then boston mass. or chicago. I felt like i wanted to run away from all my problems. but i knew it doesnt work that way. but i was considering going to new york to live. I felt like that i wanted to drop everything in my life. and the only thing i wanted was to be left alone. sometimes i cry at night and dont get much sleep. its external to things of achievement and what i want to do is get passed this. I want a great life. so that is why i am here in arizona.